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Hari ini deg-deg an! karna jam 1 ntar i had a big appointment..well at least it’s a big deal for me.
yahh deg-deg an karna takut aja ntar nggak bisa menahan diri, menahan emosi. I feel i’m stronger than before,but somehow i also believe sometimes i can’t hold myself from doing something stupid!…Tapi pernah kaan lo ngerasain nggak percaya ama diri sendiri..Nah belakangan ini gw juga ngerasa nggak mau terlalu percaya dulu deh sama kata hati sendiri he3..Jadi lah gw selalu berkonsultasi sama semua temen-temen. Dari hal yang paling penting sampai hal yang nggak penting sama sekali . Baru kemudian mengambil kesimpulan dari masukan mereka.
Saking takutnya nggak bisa mengontrol diri, tadi malam pun sambil nongkrong di salah satu tempat yg cozy di jogja ini gw berpikir. Berusaha menulis point-point penting yang mau diomongin. Persis deeh klo kita lagi siap2 buat presentasi dan belum yakin banget menguasai bahannya apa enggak! hahahahahahah…..Yahh nggak ada gunanya lah kalo gw nggak bisa mengontrol diri, masalah yang mau diilangin bukannya abis tapi tambah lagiii…
Tapi gw percaya kemauan datang dari diri kita sendiri kan? Dan gw mau hidup gw maju, gw mau hidup lebih baik lagi dari yang kemarin-kemarin. Gw pengen hal-hal yang dibelakang jadi pengingat sekaligus pengalaman. Seperti bokap temen gw pernah bilang "apapun yang terjadi dalam hidup lo,dan nggak bikin lo mati adalah pengalaman yang bisa menguatkan lo"
daily reports | Comments (3)EL MELER
Duuh males banget ya klo udah mau mulai pilek dan batuk..proses nya itu lhoo..nggak enak banget..mulai dari sakit kepala, badan meriang nggak jelas,dan bawaan jadi lebih banyak (bawa tisu kemana mana!)
Nah kalo boleh milih , sebenernya enakan mana sih ya
1. Idung bumpet sebelah, jadi tidur nggak nyenyak dan serba salah. Yang paling parah kalo dipake duduk ato jalan kok ya teteeep aja bumpet..
haduh haduh jadi kasian ama lobang idung yg satunya..rada2 berat kerjanya..
2. Meler!
Yang bikin kita nyerot-nyerot idung, karna kalo enggak bakal meler dah kemana2. kalo jaman TK sih masih bisa diatasin sama saputangan yg dipeniti di dada. segede ini masa sih masih lucu gitu?hehehehe…diganti kemana-mana bawa tisu gulung! ya tetep nggak elit juga sih :p tapi irit hi3..
tapii jadi kasiannya ama idung nih, keseringan nyerot jadi suka sakit gitu dah idungnya..
Jadi klo boleh milih lebih enak bumpet, apa meler?
daily reports | Comments (4)SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW
Somewhere over the rainbow, way up high
There’s a land that I heard of once,In a lullaby.
Somewhere over the rainbow, skies are blue.
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.
Someday I’ll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me…
Where troubles melt like lemon drops,
Away above the chimney tops,
That’s where you’ll find me…
Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly,
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then oh why can’t I?
If all those little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow…
Why do why .. can’t I?
LOST AND FOUND
A wise man used to said "when you lost,you will find"
kinda hard to believe it when your emotion take holds on you.
And all you could think of is pain,anger,and all those feelings that make you frustated..
In my past few weeks i’ve been forced to feel lots of them in the same time..
Some are great,some are awful. but one thing for sure it makes me exhausted..
First,
If you lost something that was precious to you, must be hard
most of us would cry
Then, when you found friends whom you thought you had lost
but they were there right in the place where you left
And they’ve slap you over and over by words
encouragement, advise and jokes 
you might cry yourself with tears of joy
Last, you went home
told everything you’ve kept to them, and how it made you
and then again they slap you over and over with words
this time with wisdom, wamrth, and comforty
you might feel relieved
And you thought you’ve found yourself a whole..
but then again..in the mid of nights
you couldn’t keep your mind wunderin’
you still couldn’t find your peace of mind
You knew you need HIM
whom for the truth,you were affraid to see
cause you’re all over with sins, with no hope of mercy
And then again i remember wise man said
HE always there for you
even if the rest of the world dissapeared before you
even if the world never forgive you for what you’ve done
all you need is look for HIM, and HE’LL find you
-when you lost,you’ll find…
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